Intro

I have blogged in the past, and sharing my thoughts is something that I am indeed no stranger to.
One of the reasons for this is: I simply have a lot that I want to say, and as of yet, despite my not having a physical stage in which I can be on, there is this wonderful tool called the internet.
Aside note: MY venus is in LEO, so I do enjoy having a stage or platform in which I can share ideas, whether people wish to listen to them or not. It's really, the advantage of having the ability to choose. You can choose to take some of my ideas, or you can choose to dismiss them out of hand.
Does this mean that every person who reads what I type is going to leave this blog thinking that this is something for them? Well, I hope not.
I know that is a somewhat weird thing for a person to say, but realistically, I don't expect everybody is going to want to think like I do, and really; that's somewhat of a good thing. Life would be rather boring if every person was the same, and I have not claimed that I have the answers to all of the questions out there.
I have an inquiring mind and I also have the will to go seek out as much information as I can on things I am interested in at the time.
I also have the desire to grow and to better myself, and if you knew me, you would realize that I am doing phenominally better than I was a mere ten years ago.
Does this mean that I am satisfied and content being where I am and have no dreams for the future?
NO. Not by a long shot.
My name is Gavriil Peloponnakos, and at a very young age, I was diagonsed with Asperger's.
Now, just to clarify, Asperger's is a variant of High Functioning Autism. Do I believe that I will ever be "cured" of this? No.
Why would I want to be cured of something that I don't frankly see as a problem?
Sure, my brain is wired differently physically, and I don't think like most other people, but from what I have seen, a lot of people make excuses for why they don't go after what they really want in life, instead vying to go for the safest most tried and proven route instead of taking a gamble on themselves.
I have had a problem with my verbal filter (It almost doesn't exist, I guess). There is nothing that tells me "This is right to say, and this is not so good", merely "Does this seem like something I want to say" and "Has somebody yelled at me because of this?".
Of course, despite my social awkwardness, I don't just quit trying to get along with other people.
Despite the fact that people around me sometimes don't know what to expect, it doesn't stop me from still trying to better myself in ways that I feel will benefit me.
Despite what people think or don't think I can and cannot do, I don't give up on my dreams and goals of what I want to do.
I'm not writing this stuff so I can get sympathy or pity. I am writing this to inspire you.
You see, I was raised in a single parent home without a father around.  The schools I went to misdiagnosed me with Attention Defecit Disorder.
The guidance councillors think that they are clinical psychyiatrists or something, apparently, and suggested that my mother put me on ritalin. My mother, being the person that she is, looked at my guidance councillor and told her that wasn't going to happen.
Some time later, when I was seeing an actual therapist, they diagnosed me as having Asperger's Disorder.
I didn't want anything to do with this diagnosis, because I didn't want to face the stigma of being made fun of in my school. I was thirteen years old and the year was 1996. People were ignorant then, some still are ignorant now. I got picked on in school because I didn't really have a sense of what is socially appropriate.
My guidance councillor's advice when I got picked on was a generic "don't make yourself a target" without any explainations of what I could do to correct my behavior. Of course, it wouldn't have done much, as people that were cruel at thirteen years old saw me as somebody to pick on in any case.
If a guidance councillor dared to say something so outrageous to a student who is being bullied in 2011, THEY would be DISMISSED from their position and would no longer be an employee of that school.
The anti bullying initiative is definately a good first step. Also, we strive to educate people on how to end the cycle of hurtful situations and words.
Unfortunately, it takes the suicides of children as young as EIGHT YEARS OLD to make us realize that we need to focus on the better alternative to the angry bullying ways of some of their peers.
I went through school and I felt truly alone, and even at twenty (I was in school three years later than graduation should have been), when I acknowledged I have Asperger's and was willing to tey to deal with it, I still felt outcast and unwanted.
If you have any doubt about what a single person's attitude can make them accomplish, look at me.
I was called "faggot" and "retard" amongst other things going through school.
I was actually called "retard" and stupid by my own stepfather, and berated constantly.
As recently as three years ago, I was so bitter and angry that I would be on the bus and I would project a field of negativity and hostility so nobody bad would come near me.
The downside of this? Nobody nice wanted anything to do with me either.
I had been so dissapointed and angered by life and the circumstances that I was unwilling to see anything else.
Where am I now? I moved to a new province, which people in my old school probably thought I would never do. I draw very skillfully, which if you knew my motor skills when I was a child, you would be amazed at. My monitor is also a 42" flatscreen television, and I was given it by someone I know who wanted to get rid of it. I held an image of what I wanted in my mind, and I got it.
Whenever my computer bites the dust, and I can't repair it (I am also very skilled at diagnosing computer problems, as I am highly intelligent), I am able to manifest a way to get one.
I'm not exactly in the financial state I want to be yet, but for now, I can have a guarantee of food on the table without using a food bank (not a guarantee even last year). I live in a neighborhood free of drugs or violence, and I don't have to worry about my own or my mother's personal safety now.
I have a roof over my head and I have a room that has a bed which doesn't have the springs poking up at me since it isn't a cheap mattress.  My computer isn't so slow that I can hardly do anything on it.
I actually was able to get a wireless keyboard an mouse.
Also, emotionally, aside from the material stuff; I am more happy and content than I was ten or even three years ago, because I realized that nobody but I can give me the permission to feel happiness and well being.
I even lost my best friend as recently as last year because he wasn't willing to be friends anymore, and yet I still held onto a couple things. My art and my desire to move to a place with more opportunities.
You know you're in a "bad situation" when you're paying part of your bills, and you can't always afford groceries, and you have a lot going on in your life.
This year, I had to move out of that place because of many things. I liked the wide open spaces, but I hated the noise. The place was no longer a home to me, and I was bitter and angry, but in the midst of it, I still could envision something better for myself.
You see, people do have real barriers and they do have real things that make them have to work with their limitations or sometimes even surpass them entirely.
So, why did I bother writing this?
Because I am neither bragging nor attention seeking, but I am telling you a simple truth;
That truth is, you can do one of two things with your life. You can blame your circumstances or people out side of you  for what is going on, or your can envision what you TRULY want out of life, and strive to GET IT.
It may take a month, or it may take years. But don't let age or education or circumstances be your barrier.
There was an illiterate man of over ninety years old, and he learned to read.
There is somebody at 85 years of age (Jack Slotnick) is going for a bachelor of arts in psychology and then going for his master's degree. He doesn't need to, statistically. Expectations of people who are of this age are that they will retire and stop trying. They are seen as "why bother" by some of the younger people.
Its never too late to get started on your dreams. Its never too late to be who you want to be.
You're never going to go anywhere if your excuses are bigger than you are.
You can have a car, but if you don't fill it up with gas or start the engine and use the accelerator pedal, you can steer all you want, but you will be in one spot with a flooded gas chamber.
By the way, while it is initially hard to get around all the negative programming you've been conditioned with, it is never impossible.
I know that as a person with free choice, you can accept or reject what I've been trying in my own way to share with you because in the end, you have the freedom to live your life the way you want.
  You probably wonder about other people. "Can I change so and so?"
No. It's gotta be the person who wishes to change.
You can work on one person in this life, and that is you. It's a 24/7 job doing that alone, but it's not hard, because you'll be coming into what you feel you want to do.
There is an awesome quote from esther hicks-
"if you knew your potential to feel good, you would ask nobody to be different so that you can feel good. You would free yourself from all that cumbersome impossibility of needing to control the world or needing to control your mate, or child. You are the only one that creates your reality, for nobody else can think for you, it is only you".

Many people use the lingo such as "uneversal mind" or "law of attraction" or "law of vibration" where others use the terms such as "G-d" and "spirit" and "prayer". Whatever works for a person.
If you believe it's the universe or G-d that's guiding you, awesome.
I believe G-d has a hand in my sucess, but I also believe that if I don't take action, his hand won't do much with me.
I'm not one of those preachy "The l-rd this" and "the l-rd that" people.
I believe that people should realize they need to be themselves. Not for their loved ones or for some person telling them they need to, but for themselves.
now, positive thinking isn't exactly the whole of it. You can have a smile on your face and still have a bad circumstance. It's through planning and having an emotionally invested mental picture of what you want to be do and have.
You don't have to be a millionaire, and you don't have to be the next missionary to africa. Your vision and life's goals can be what YOU say they are.
Sure, you will get lots of naysayers for whatever reason, but everyone going in the right direction comes across resistance. In call of duty or halo, if you're not encountering resistance, you're probably not going anywhere, or probably going the wrong way.
But resisting people and their resistance will not get you anywhere in real life either. That which you shout "no" at persists.  There are many wars on many things, and these things haven't been eliminated.
One of the greatest examples of choosing to live the life you truly want is transgender people.
They didn't choose to have the brain that didn't match their physical gender. But, the ones that transition encounter the possibility of being outcast and shunned by even closest family members.
They encounter the possibility of being assaulted or murdered by people who hate them for no other reason then being different. But yet, if they stay repressed and don't express who they really are inside, the stress of living a lie can be just as deadly.
If you're still confused, there's a great video called "the secret" and "beyond the secret".
Part of it is presentation, but they make some really interesting and valid points in it.
Also, another good video to watch if you've seen one or both of these is "what the bleep do we know".
It's kind similar, except from a quantom phuysics point of view.
Also, there's a website which is inspirational with the life story of Morris E Goodman.
http://www.themiracleman.org/
Well, that's about all I can think of, so have a great day, and if you want to, you can leave your comments and questions, and if I know how to answer or respond, I will. (As I pointed out earlier, I don't know everything there is to know).
But I do know this. Everybody has potential to do great things. It's all upto you.